I haven’t been strong as of late. I was. I was going strong for a long time, for me at least. I felt happy. I felt bold. I felt as though I had strength. It didn’t last though.
Now I feel weak. I shrink, much in the way described in this talk. What I need to do is to turn away from anger. I need to turn away from the fear.
Why the anger. It might be justified, but why not confidence? Why not a better feeling? I need not encourage this feeling. It’s time to repent these feelings away. Christ knows how I feel. He understands. I know.
I have to remember to just follow His guidance and just come unto him. I should replace mine anger with love. I’m gonna brainstorm some exercises and maybe e’en try one out right after this post.
So activities of love, not anger:
Writing to my loved ones
Writing to my future posterity
Writing to my grandparents
Writing to my parents
Writing to my brother who lives afar
Writing to secret sweetmates
Using Valentine’s as an excuse to engage with sweetmates
making a Valentine Day project
planning a valentine day project
wondering about the wife i will have.
counting the many blessings i have
counting the many blessings my mother has given me
counting the many blessings my father has given me
counting the many blessings i give to others
counting the many blessings i am capable of getting
counting the many blessings i have yet to get
counting the many blessings out there
This is good.