Just looked at the calendar. So many things to do. Can I do them in time? I am suppose to have a good script for a comic book in two weeks. I have a presentation Tuesday night. I have a test friday-which i probably cannot make. I have a job I missed a whole weekend of work. Why?
I am being treated for a mental illness. It’s torture. I am racked with emotions of confusion and frustration, irritability. I really didn’t want to make a post in this state, but i really should. I need to let these feelings out somewhere. Problem is I actually have some followers. I don’t want you guys knowing I feel this way. but lo, here i am.
It feels as though no one can help. I really don’t know what others can do for me. I am on a strong medicinal regiment. I have been sleeping just fine. Other than my appetite my physical signs look well. I guess i could use some exercise- haven’t been fit for some time. My feelings have improved, from sad to withdrawn. My thinking have improved from bullying myself to being numb. Spiritually I have been shaky. Not really praying at all. Not studying independently at all. Somehow though thanks to good friends I do attend as many church activities as I can. Which keeps me hanging in there.
So i am gonna press on. I must do my part and get better. I gotta get things done.